I’ve Moved!

This blog really was where the healing began. It began at a rough time in my life spiritually, and thanks to God, I’ve really grown and been healed. Of course, I still struggle with things, but the struggles and my failures no longer consume my thoughts or my life in Christ. I wanted to start over and have a place to write where I could express everything in my life, not just healing in a specific area. I wanted to talk about struggles, triumphs, things I’m learning, ideas, passions, joy, etc.

So, I doubt anyone still visits this blog, but if you do, you can now find me at: realrebekah.wordpress.com


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A Place to Land

Like a dove you released me from your hand

After forty days holding on so tight

As my eyes strain for signs of solid land

My soul begins to crave the stormy nights

For miles stretched the sea but you were with me

Upon the door, the waves began their strafe

They were powerless while you held the key

Now these wings once dormant must learn to fly

Navigate winds to find some hope tonight

Bid my sheltered home a wistful goodbye

As I dream and pursue my Father’s delight

For I know before long I’ll find the tree

That my Savior has provided for me

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by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, “Wait.”

“Wait? You say wait?” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.

“My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I’m needing a ‘yes’, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.

“You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply.”

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, “Wait.”
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting for what?”

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

“I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You’d have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.
You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.

“You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

“You’d never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

“The glow of My comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I’m doing in you.

“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know Me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait.”

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Promises of my Beloved

Praise God that He is in charge of my life and I am not.

“For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
The LORD will give grace and glory;
No good thing will He withhold
From those who walk uprightly.”

-Psalm 84:11

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This is Just Therapy

Letting it all sink in, it’s good to feel a sting now and again. I hope it’s one less woeful thing there is to fight through.

Letting it all begin, fresh paper and a nice expensive pen. The past cannot subtract a thing from what I might do for you, unless that’s what I let it do.

This is just therapy. Just call it what it is with a death grip on this life always transitioning. This is just therapy ’cause you won’t take my calls and that makes God the only one who’s left here listening.

Loneliness and solitude are two things not to get confused ’cause I spend my solitude with you.

-Therapy by Relient K

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My JESUS Is Amazing

I know the large majority of the stories in the gospel backwards and forwards. I can tell you all of the details and it has become so elementary to me that they are hard to truly grasp. But when I actually look at them–actually see what they say about Jesus. Wow. It blows me away. I’ve been going through Mark lately, and I’m just being blown away by the Lord and Savior that I serve. I want to describe everything that they mean to me. I want to show how amazing our God is, but I’m finding my words can’t do justice.

All I can say is that I’m thankful to serve a God that is strong enough and powerful enough to calm a raging ocean, a Savior that has authority over demons and all powers of the earth, a Lord that’s loving enough to travel across the ocean for one demon-posessed man, who, cast out by society, cries out and cuts himself, and a Redeemer who cares enough to stop everything he’s doing to heal a 12 year-old girl and make sure she gets something to eat.

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Proverbs 31:30

“Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing,
But a woman who fears the LORD, she shall be praised.”

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